Ik wil ten eerste iedereen hele fijne feestdagen wensen, en een heel gelukkig nieuwjaar.

Hier gaat het alleen niet zo best, heb erg last van blaas en darm-krampen en veel pijn,
ik denk dat het komt door de kou...
Buiten dat zijn dit ook erg emotionele en zware dagen voor me vanwege verlies van 3 dierbaren...

Vandaag de laatste keer waarschijnlijk dat ik Maiki ooit nog heb gesproken.

We ignore the ones that adore us...
Adore that ones that ignore us...
Love the ones who hurt us...
&&. Hurt the ones who love us...

De moeilijke dagen komen er aan, enfin, ze zijn er al.

Kerst bij Maiki gevierd, Oud en nieuw & zijn verjaardag + 1 jaar samen zijn (zou dit jaar dan 2 zijn) en ga zo maar door.

Na de ruzie van vandaag heeft hij me verwijderd, dus het zal wel.

Misschien is het wel beter zo. Het zal trouwens wel beter zo zijn, alles gebeurd om een reden..

The broken machine is dreaming
eternally slumbering, playing the keys of time

How many more nights must I spin
before I can become the light that illuminates you?

Don't let go
because I want to chase after you then escape
at least hold me in your tender warmth, let me blossom

Just call my name (I wanna be there with you)
so call my name (I wanna be free so free.)
the scattering fragments (After a while, I get worn down down down)*
Please link together (I wanna be there with you. I wanna be free so free.)
by your one arm (After a while, I get worn down down down.)
I can still be myself?
Could you get me out of this cipher?

Within the infinitely reverberating tones,
can you hear my voice?

Don"t avert your eyes,
even if I"m not the me you remember
I will grasp the melody that composes from the blank void to tomorrow

Just call my name
So call my name
the scattering fragments
please count them by your arm
I still want to be myself
could you get me out of this cipher?

Just call my name
So call my name
the scattering fragments
please link together by you arm
Just call my name
So call my name
burning in my gaze
I want to sink down down to your chest
Can I still be myself?
Could you get me out of this cipher?

Waarom doen juist de leuke en mooie herinneringen pijn....?

Leuk gehad met Soraya en Cornelia vandaag :)

I don't wanna talk now
I don't wanna hear you scream no more
Want somebody to save me
Everything I do feels like its wrong
All we do is fall down
even though we try to stay afloat
I swear its gonna kill me
even though you think it wont
So why rock a boat and make waves
And everything's calm and okay
So why am I confused if you love me
Thought this would be smooth sailing

Cause I don't wanna let you go
and we're caught in the undertow
Cause I ain't losing my control
And we're caught in the undertow
I hold the prayer is all our own
but we need air we go alone
cause I don't wanna let you go
til we're caught in the undertow

I don't wanna cry every time we try it never fails
Change the illusion wanna be close set for sail
My hearts in your hand don't you go hurt me again
all we got is one chance and its sink or swim
So why rock a boat and make waves
And everything's calm and okay
why am I confused if you love me
Thought this would be smooth sailing

He heals me
Told him my biggest secret
And he told me four.
He smiled at me and said
that makes me love more
And then he made me laugh
And I knew it was a sign
That he was a man,
That I wanted in my life

And with every passing day
I feel more and more of that way

He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me,
He heals me

I can play him songs, all
through the night,
And he will listen to every line,
And even when I'm wrong, he is still kind
He chooses his words wisely
when he tells me I'm not right.

And yes he is a beautiful man,
But he is also a beautiful friend

He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me

The moment that we met, he made me smile.
He has so much compassion in his eyes
I have no idea, how long he'll be here
A season or a lifetime, forever or a year
But for the first time in my
life I'm not worried about
the future
Because we have such a
wonderful time when we're together
However things turn out, it's all right
Cause he's already changed my life.

He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me..........

I hope you are the one I share my life with
I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with

Hoping for the best, but getting the worst
Hoping for more, but getting less.
Hoping to get far, but going backwords.
It's like searching for love & finding hate.

Ben het besef van dagen kwijt, heb geen normaal slaap ritme meer en voel me ellendig..

A drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert...
But i'm holding you closer than most,
Cause you are my heaven,
You are my heaven.

.....but i have to wake up.

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you
Don't give up!!!!
Who are we to be Questioning, wondering what is what.
Don't give up through it all just stand up...